What are the words to say? Whatever it takes. I had to shout this to myself yesterday.
I begin my Tuesday AM as always, roll out of bed at 3:15, bathroom, potty, wash face. That face washing give me a jump to fully wake up. Look around, sit for a few minutes of meditation. Then my day gets to moving.
Clean liter box, change dog pads (which are actually adult underpads, work better than dog pad). Fresh water and give Lucky (canine) first eye drops. Spot clean areas the fur babies missed on side of the pads, drink pre workout and now time for Lucky’s second eye drops, BUT, Lucky did not move, wake-up says I and then I noticed, his tongue was out, purple and no breathing. My little fellow had received his dog wings.
What, this was quick and why was I so warm. I checked the thermost -78. What? I raised my hand, no air flow, ran outside to check if the system was working. No funny noises.
I cried and cried and cried, I could not workout, what to do with my fur baby, and the air, what about Versace and FJ (my other fur babies). I cried again, washed my face and looked in the mirror. You are not making history, now you are Good, no GREAT, put your mind in positive mode and handle this.
I didn’t want to but I did. I’m still mourning the loss of my fur baby but 17 years is great, however I was blessed to have him for 7 great, beautiful, lovely years. A/C working. Today is another missed workout day and I’m not beating myself up. I will resume tomorrow.
Just a reminder, sometimes we have to deal with those curves tossed by life. In dealing with these curves we must remember to say it. Say those things to remind us of ourselves.