I’m Halfway There

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I am at that point.  I completed week 4 of my current workout Barre Blend.  I’m excited to have made this far for several reasons and they are all mixed.

1. When I begin the first day and the first 10 minutes in I was thinking this is really low impact and on this day using the recommended weights 1-5 lbs., my choice 5. I had the 8 lbs. ready because really I THOUGHT 20 lbs. maybe this is combination workout.
2. Combination workout ballet, Pilates, yoga, light strength, kickboxing. Now why would this program recommend such light weights.
3. Did I mention it’s a combination workout well within 10 minutes may have been 9 I understood. I checked my weights did I accidently pickup the 8’s or 10 lbs. NOPE 5 lbs. and I quickly reduced to 3 lbs. and have been there for 4 weeks.
4. Honestly a few of the routines I had to drop the weights to nothing because I was losing form and balance oh endurance too. I first contributed the drop of endurance to me sometimes doing a pre-workout before my workout. My pre-workouts are usually 1-3 miles on the treadmill and 2 miles on the elliptical beginning at speed of 3.4 up to 7 but today I begin at 3.5 and increased to 8.5.
But it wasn’t the pre-workout that challenged my endurance and barre workout it was both the weights and a new approach to fitness on a new level.
5. As always follow the recommendation of the trainer.

This week-end sometime I will be purchasing 1lb. weights and maybe 2 lbs., because I know this low impact, high intensity will be challenging as each week the intensity increases and I want to be better (though I have improved) than the past 4 weeks.

To a week of progression.

This Water THING

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For me it’s a “thing” because it just is.  I know and have heard for so many times you need to drink water and the benefits of.  Now don’t misunderstand me, I do drink water and lots of it most of the time.  Yes most of the time because, honestly it’s not to MY best interest to drink a lot “all the time”.

You’re suppose to drink 1/2 your weight in water and I notice a different in my body, weight and skin when I do.  Okay I must pause to say  I love water, it took me a few years to make it part of my daily regimen a few years ago, so yes I love water however….

If you’re an individual that is close to a bathroom 24 hours a day or within 30 minutes I applaud you.  My lifestyle and all it entails this is not me.  You’d be surprise how. Many times I’ve gone to restaurants, (oh I hope no one I’ve lied to is reading this), I pretend I’m meeting someone then ask for the ladies room afterwards I sit for a few and say I’ve been stood up or pretend I just received a text indicating my fake person just cancelled.  I ran out of restaurants.  So yeah I can’t do that and I few times I had to stop at a gas station or piss my pants so, yeah NOPE don’t want to do that again. On days I commute on Park and Ride well there isn’t an option of getting off and if I did I’d have to use a field and then I’d be charged for indecent exposure.

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With all this said, I’m not sure so many people just drink all this water.  BUT on days I know I will be stable like at home or within 15- 20 minutes away I do drink 1/2 my weight in water.  I recommend for those who share and have the same concerns to drink what you can and when possible drink 1/2 your weight in water.  For those that can do it daily I’m applauding you and keep up the water intake because their are so. Many benefits.

To days ahead, LET US ALL HYDRATE WITH WATER

I Wronged Myself

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I really did with my pre perception of my current workout- Barre Blend.  I almost  stopped the workout on day one until I was half through and realized I was sweating and breathing hard.  It challenged me with 3 lb weights. Huh what the heck I asked myself is going on.  The next day I felt that workout and the previous days workout in every muscle.

Now I know where my perception went off, “low impact”.  Barre is a low impact workout however it is high intensity and there are way to intensify it further.  I didn’t know what I didn’t know, but now I do.  Will I recommend barre to anyone? No, I recommend it to everyone for a new approach to an intense workout with fun and dance.

 

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Of course I stream my workout, Beachbodyondemand.com, because I need structure a calendar to follow a team I can talk to that is doing the same workout as well accountability. Yes I need it all but I still am stoked as to how I wronged myself.

 

How Could I ?

How could I?, before I complete this let me share a few details.  I begin a new workout and still as I begin week 3 am uncertain if I will endure the 5 day, 30 minutes a day, 8 week program.  I committed to sharing my response to this program in weight loss or gains as well as in inches lost or gained.

This new workout is Barre and I’ve recently heard of barre but never thought to explore it until by streaming workout offered it. So here I am and it is not at all what I envisioned or thought after the first 10 minutes.  It’s a combination of Pilates, yoga, muscle training, ballet and just everything.  Yeah it has it all and the weight use is light.  Okay back to the the topic, How Could I?

I did good on the first week in inches more so than in pounds but I was satisfied. Nonetheless, week 2 I just lost it I ate a entire sleeve of Girl Scout cookies, and two days later I completed the second sleeve.  Now I’m still eating my usual meals and I log my intake and workouts.  Calories in, calories expended through workout and just daily steps and whatever activity I do and they vary.  I also went to a friend’s birthday party and I showed out in eating but not all at once. I ate cake 2 different flavors, and oh my those potatoes and corn with the crawfish were too delicious. I don’t eat crawfish but I confess I indulged in the potatoes and corn. NOPE I’m not saying how much I ate cause you’d loose a few breathe.

Now I weighed myself and took measurements I had the audacity to question what, I ran a few times last week and I monitored my intake. I lost 0.9 lb and 4 inches much less than the following week. What the heck is going on? I asked myself and myself reminded me. You enjoyed those cookies, corn, potatoes so that’s what’s going on.

I’m not saying you cannot enjoy life but I know you do have to monitor portion size and if you do over indulge one day then it should be that one day not every other day, which I am so guilty and raise both hands to guilt.  With a slow metabolism I knew better. SO with that “How Couldd I” expect a greater loss.

Working out no matter the level of intensity I the nutrition is off except a slow response. I’m not angry with myself because I staggered off my fitness journey but this week I am SO COMMITTED .  I say when you get off your fit journey or any journey just get back on. Don’t stay off, don’t get angry.  Keep it moving me, you, we are human we make our own positive recovery.  To a Positive WEEK.

I Gave Myself Permission

 

Have you experience one of those blah days and you need just time to yourself and your schedule isn’t as tight but you feel guilty about not following your routine.  Well this was me just a few days ago.

I felt guilty and yet I just wanted to lounge around.  It took me a few minutes and YES. I stood up shouted my name and gave myself permission to just do NOTHING.  Of course this was not for a long period of times but for a couple of hours and I felt good.

I was very pleased at myself afterwards and my day went GREAT.  My energy and focus were on point, I got a lot accomplished. Will I do this regularly, NO but I now know should I make this decision not to feel guilty.

I encourage you too to give yourself permission to do something you feel guilty about, now make certain it’s legal and not harming you or anyone else.  Enjoy it and feel the reward later. I Gave Myself Permission and now so should you.

 

Accept ME Accept YOU

Reflecting on my fitness journey and the struggles I  had at the beginning and how many times I begin and stopped.  Really the the number is, I don’t know but I can say it was greater than 20.  Yes that many and why? It took me a long while to understand me and why I would stop.  The BIGGEST reason and it was only one, the others were just excuses to satisfy myself.

The BIGGEST REASON, I was not accepting me for me for the now.  I was not happy with myself, how I look and how I felt  and just kept thinking I don’t like me.  I was not accepting myself for where I was and the person I was at that time.  When I begin to accept me just as I was and looking at myself loving me for me just as I was but willing to adjust  you know begin tweaking me.  Yes, accepting myself I was able to see what changes I wanted to do and those I could implement immediately, plans, writing it down, staying focus. I had to accept the current me to grow into the me I wanted to be.

But this applies to not just fitness journey, it applies to any journey.  So today if you’re wanting change and keep stopping to start over again, I ask you to STOP the stopping.  I want you to ACCEPT YOU just as you are right now, love you. Now the changes you want, the goals, write them down, and every day evaluate, tweak but continue to ACCEPT YOU and keep moving toward those goals.

So WHAT

 

So WHAT, now do you know the meaning of that? I bet not, but so what.

Okay I have to tell myself this and I think others should too as long as we’re not doing it on a regular basis.  I am good for meal prepping, or have ready made salad fixings especially when I’m extremely tired. BUT there are days I do toss it to the side not intentionally.  Like when I forget to make a grocery list and pick up everything else but what I need for me because I have enough.  I was wrong .  This is a recent occurrence and what did I do.

Well I stopped at Burger King and purchased the Impossible Whopper.  It was okay, a bit large in size and I was only able to consume 1/2 of it .  I was okay with this and said so what.  Yes because I knew I would not eat it again at least for awhile.

So what is not only for me but for Anyone feeling guilty about deviating from a workout, well you will resume so what, if you’ve gain weight and not happy about it but you have begin working out and changed your nutritional intake, so what to the weight gain.

What I’m saying is making change to a better you and with change you cannot focus on reaching goals if you waste time on the past.  Yes that burger is the past because I will not eat it again for several weeks most likely months.  Did it hinder my workout umm just slightly.

So WHAT, what matters and is so important is the change or changes you,me, we have decided on to reach our goals.