Inner STRENGTH

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Inner strength does not, well for me just me pushing myself to one more rep or lifting extra weight.  Inner strength is being strong to walk away from negative people, saying NO instead of yes when I know the topic is not favorable or positive towards my goals or life or harming someone else.

Inner strength to let go of friends you know are toxic  or unsupportive always about them. Am I ranting? No and yes. No because I have realized toxic people have slowed down a few of my life goals.  Now is this their fault, NO. It’s mine because I allowed it. Unsupportive, I know we are all different in many ways and similar in many, but that support is two ways. Yes is supporting you all the times and you never support me hmmm. Yep I have to dig deep and move on. This really can hurt for a few days but that deep breathe of clean air and light weight yeah feels good. This takes great inner strength because LIFE is short and who wants to limit association with friends and family. No one, but if it means clarity and enjoying your life and making goals become a reality ….. you get it. This just take Inner strength. I am still a bit weak in some areas but my strength is growing and I feel better in eliminating.

This applies to and for me. PLEASE do not run about eliminating people from your life.  Evaluate and not just on one incidence.  Communicate, explain your concerns and feelings.  It takes inner strength to do that also because it it’s so easy to shake it off and off and off.

Now, lets flex our INNER STRENGTH

Why Do I Stream My Workouts

I have been asked this question so many times in the past weeks. First I want to say I have nothing against going to the gym, it just does not work for me for several reasons and I will share.

1. By the time I get dress drive to the gym, check in place my clothes in the locker room- my stream workout is done.
2. If I’m tired in my commute from work or just had a long tiring day and need to unwind I’m not going to stop by the gym. However if I go home and relax I can workout at home.
3. I can be dress in any attire to workout on my stream
4. My fit community is so supportive and positive and even more motivating
5. I need structure. There is a calendar for me to follow and the trainers are just awesome also motivating, encouraging and just real.
6. My trainers are available 24/7 on stream and if necessary I can DM them on IG.
7. Last for now, IT’S MY CHOICE AND APPEASING TO ME.

 

To workouts of choices-  just get it done.

I Still Remember My “Third Leg”

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Puzzling as it sounds, I had a third leg or so it felt like. I often reflect on his to remind myself of again my transition and gains on my fitness journey.  I know I’ve shared this before and it is necessary for me to reflect on.

I have a history of horrible eating disorder.  Yes I’ve been through it all, anorexia- which I could go for a month or longer on water or a Sonic Route 44 once a day.  Bulemia if I consumed a meal greater than 500 calories or another bulemia is to workout until my burn has 3 to 4 times greater than my intake.  Oh yes I occasionally abused laxatives.  I was thin shapely an VERY VERY unhealthy.

On the flip of this I went through phases of just binging and binging and yes you guessed it, more binging.  I was large and angry because the manufacturers were making their clothes smaller.  I was not willing to accept the fact I was eat and had eaten out of smaller sizes.  I yo-yo for a minute then the third leg reality came.

I had a third leg.  I had gone from XS scrubs to XL and they were getting tight.  I one day put on my scrubs, right leg, left leg and I literally had to raise my abdomen up and drop it in my scrubs.  Now most people gain abdominal weight all around no mine just hung like a leg.  I privately cried and did not want to use the bathroom at work because of how long it took to undress and redress after doing my business.  I took a look and knew I needed to change and that’s when my fitness journey begin.

Do I fall off track sometimes but guess what?  I don’t have a third leg and NO I’m not back in XS scrubs but I am in M and they are getting just a bit loose but nearly enough for a small.

I eat normally, my intake fluctuates as so my craving but thanks to “ultimate portion fix and the containers” also 2BMindset my nutrition is one of health.  My workouts are all on point, streamed Beachbodyondemand.

So bye,bye third leg and on with my fitness journey.  To you I send my best that you can wave bye to anything in your life you are not excited about and move forward to your goal or goals as they just keep coming.

 

Trouble Shooting Myself

 

That sounds weird as if I am a robot right? Well I’m no robot and troubleshoot is just what I’ve recently begin saying to myself. Why this term well I have to evaluate myself. Sometimes it’s  my workouts and other times it’s life and the ball it tosses.

Workouts first. I sometimes hesitate maybe laziness, fatigue (which is different from lazy),  stress, frustration and this list can go on but hopefully you get the picture.  I have to evaluate my reason and why. The why can itself create a list. Now then it’s time to troubleshoot the why or whys.  How?, well I must look at the reason for example if I am stressed about a situation. I look deeper to determine if it actually involves me (sometimes we get caught up on change or circumstances of others and it effects us).  If it does involve me what can I do, or is it a situation of change I need to adjust to and move along. This usually applies to on the job. If it is personal then what do I need to implement to distress myself and immediately because stress can lead to a multitude of health issues. So there, I  trouble shot.

I know some say resolved and it is but I feel I should go deeper and trouble shoot so I will not in a few weeks or month have to re-resolve. Just saying and it’s what works for me.

After resolution which sometimes take a few minutes, hours, days, a week or two and never prolonging into months. Using the example given in workouts once resolved I can give greater than 100 in my workouts and see results as well as feel better.

Life now. How do I troubleshoot that? Almost the same how am I affected and involved.  Am I being a butthead and not wanting to adjust or is it a matter I need to handle? If it is the butthead I evaluate why am I being just that every reason I come up with I question it. If it an issue I need to handle personally then I implement a plan and follow through. Again resolved, resolution the same I just troubleshoot because I dig deeper in hopes of a zero return. It’s just me.

Either way I encourage you to evaluate the reason you sometimes delay your goals be it workouts or a life goal you are progressing in. TROUBLESHOOT IT. 

Challenges Do Create and Motivate

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Say WHAT? Can you I say that again, of course, Challenges do create and motivate atleast for me.

My workouts especially the current one I am currently doing challenges me.  It’s not the weights but just the routines and then weights are added and I’m trying to keep on beat before the routine changes, I’m huffing and puffing and then I get angry for a minute or three.  Angry because I question why the heck am I doing this particular workout, why not just sit this routine out and see what the next one will be or just stop the program ?

Why, why, then I grasp a hold on what is going on. Why because I want change not just physical but also mental. SO what happens, I resume the workout and challenge myself on the routine and really what happens is so surprising and appeasing. Then I think, how often I have did the same thing in life.

In life it is sometimes easy to take an easier out than challenge what we think we can’t do, because of fear, or mockery from others, sometimes lazy or the fear of losing a friend.  But if you as I did challenge small things and see the outcome and most of all feel GREAT then its time. TIME to unlock our greatness, mine included.

This week or days head challenge yourself in areas you thought were unreachable, goals of satisfaction and watch the greatness in you shine and will motivate you to higher goals and challenges. Just as I believe in me, I also believe in you.

CHALLENGES WE’RE COMING

Intermittent – Why I Can’t

There is so much going on in the fitness world, workouts, diets, and fasting.  Intermittent fasting is getting a lot of chatter and so far I’m hearing good results.  I was approached by a colleague and asked if I’d ever tried it.  My face went blank and I stared before I answered because I could tell by her excitement she had tried it and was doing it regularly.

Why did I stare, well I hadn’t shared my fasting days, which were really my anorexia days.  I wasn’t sure if I was going to be judged.  Not that it matters on this subject but the negative conversation that come up I just wasn’t feeling it. I did however share with her the details why I can’t intermittent fast purposely.

Purposely yes, some days life just keep me busy before I realize it has been 18 hours darn near 24 sometimes that I have eaten.  My blood sugar is low, my attitude is not very pleasant and I’m hangry.   When this happens I make certain my first bite will be either a protein, for me usually peanut butter or a protein bar or a plate of veggies.  I then follow up with a glass of water, wait a few minutes and I’m okay.

Intermittent fasting is not for me due to my volleying anorexia, bulimia, and overeating I just try to do it  all my way. Yep eating 85/15 sometimes 75/25 (not often) and working out and hanging onto my fitness journey in a healthy way.  My eating fluctuates because I do use portion containers –  Portion fix with Autumn Calabrese is good in making sure your nutrition is not lacking so you can eat almost anything. Now 2BMindset another nutrition intake on Beachbodyondemand.com with Ilana Muhlstein. Eating what you normally eat at specific times and portion make a HUGE difference. Which is my favorite, uh neither. No favorite when they both are batting 100.

To prevent myself from slipping back into unhealthy eating habits I will not test myself because I know my relationship with myself.  I do applaud all doing the intermittent fasting and with great results. Keep up the greatness within you and what works for you.

SO to everyone let’s eat…….

Response To a Workout-my change, your change

Working out for fitness and seeing the body’s response can be fast or slow.  This is the tea- WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT.

Knowing that we are different is to say there will be different responses.  The worst thing is to compare your body’s response to another.  I learned this and had to refocus on ME.  I know that my metabolism is off due to my history of an eating disorder and it’s going to take a bit more of everything not just workouts but nutrition as well.  With this known I know my response to any workout program is going to be slower. Am I upset well NO.

If you want CHANGE it is first to know yourself.  Knowing yourself is to know your body. Cardio workouts may give you little response and weight lifting may display a huge change  or vice versa.  Proteins, carbohydrates, vegetables, fruits, healthy fats does not react the same in everyone.  Again I say, know your body and if you don’t just move things around and figure it out or consult a nutrition, metabolism testing helps decide which food groups works best for you.  But whatever you DON’T STOP” just because your results are not as fast as someone else or different body parts are responding slower.

Also don’t forget the non scale victory or should I say victories because there are so many. Just keep working out and know and believe change is happening and your goal awaits. To weeks of VICTORY for working out I’m  saluting you with an extra lift.