That Fear

Once again I’m dealing with that fear, but it’s not alone. Nope I have excitement mixed in. How so? Well I’m about to begin a new workout program for certain with another challenge (not sure why I agreed to it but) as well as embark on change in my professional world, but back to this fear and excitement on the workout.

First I’m always excited about a new workout program but a sneak peek of it can be a bit challenging, at least for me especially when I see new workouts I’ve never done. I assure I’ve been on a fitness journey on and off for years.
So I got a sneak peek and a sample workout of this new “Beachbody” program and I was thinking 🤔 this looks too challenging and I may not be able to make it the first week.


That darn fear which is usually me second guessing myself before I actually begin. Now for sure if I’m not enjoying the workout not because of the intensity but not having fun it will be a no go. I must enjoy a program. Nonetheless I committed to the workout for two weeks, this being my first. How’s it going well, umm just saying I’m for certain am challenged and YES it’s a go.
See sometimes we must step into that which we fear (as long as it is safe not life threatening ) to get our strength. That strength is not lifting weights or a workout but the mindset strength. The strength to conquer and endure.

Figuring It Out For Me

I’m currently just bouncing all over with my workouts. Now if you know me this is not always a good thing. I need structure with my workouts to prevent complacency and not to just do the same workouts in other words, a schedule. Yep this is why I love streaming my workouts, one program directing me each day what to do. This is why beachbodyondemand is my channel. Of course I do a few you tube workouts but 95% it’s that beach body workout with those awesome trainers. I shared the current bounce with someone and their recommendation left me speechless, my response was “really”. I bounce when I’m not sure which new workout I want to begin. The Recommendation- maybe working out is no longer for you, perhaps you should stop and find another hobby.

I’m lost, first it’s not a hobby, it’s my fitness journey but it’s a life style. STOP, that was alarming. Now I know I will never be able to share my fitness journey with her . Sometimes we just have to figure things out for ourselves and cast out those negative inputs regardless of how we value a person. Everyone we classify as a friend will not understand us. Yes it’s okay to value certain aspects of our life differently. But for certain if you don’t understand at most be supportive. Or just figure it out for you after all whatever journey you’re on it is about you, pleasing yourself to be proud of you. So you like me sometimes we just have to figure it out for our goals. I’m going to do a few squats to that.

Permission Without Guilt

Just a quick reminder, life happens. Life can throw a curve ball and knock you completely off, which by the way should be temporary. So, this past weekend one of my fur babies begin screaming loud for 3-5 seconds then stop. If he bumped into something, another fur love touched him and he’d stand for minutes in one place. Now Lucky is with limited vision and several eye meds to prevent further decrease in vision so I felt he was adjusting but no.

Lucky was having difficult getting comfortable to nap and adjusting for comfy he’d scream then find a way for comfort. I really thought it would pass but nope and then the vet was closed. Well I couldn’t allow him to keep screaming and I was doing everything for comfort trying to make to Monday but that wasn’t going to happen. To the animal ER we went. We were triaged quick so that meant a quick visit right? I was so wrong and was happy Lucky was able to doze off. Three hours in the vehicle and my feet were cold. In we went, examined and then injection with two meds. The cost oh my. Home and two hours later very little relief for Lucky and no sleep for me.
My Sunday was dragging, but every time he napped so did I and he screamed. He wouldn’t eat so no medication could be given and I was almost to tears. Really I just knew this is far worse and he was sick but Monday came. I called the vet no ER here and took the first appointment, this time Lucky was taken in and I sat in a cold vehicle again. I am not good for just sitting in an idling vehicle to warm or cool it for comfort. Yeah that’s just me. I get a call from the vet, more pain injection a higher dose and an inflammatory med injection with a treatment, a laser treatment one for now but he’ll need 6 more. Huh 🤔 laser well an hour later out comes the tech with Lucky and I assisted in getting him comfort for the ride home. By the way Lucky is a Shih Tzu and terrier mixed.
Minutes after getting home and comfort still tired I wanted to workout. The other fur babies looking odd I turned and there is Lucky walking toward the food bowl no screaming. What?
My little nugget had a horrible arthritis flare. I was so happy to see a speedy response to injections and laser treatment but I still wanted to workout. I was fatigued as yeah that fatigued and felt so guilty. I have a team we workout together, I’d delayed our workout which meant 2 workouts the same because everyone has a schedule so yeah. Long story short I couldn’t do either, I was super tired and energy was gone. I felt so guilty, I was letting myself and the team down.

Then a friend called and reminded me, it’s a workout, it’s okay give yourself permission for recovery and drown the guilt. WOW, I did and I was able to resume our workouts early Tuesday. We support one another in our team as well as grow together but more so understand. I ask of you what regular routine you perform and feel guilty when you have to bow out for a day or longer. Today I will say to you erase the guilt and give yourself permission to recover to a stronger you.

That Darn Comfort Food

I am guilty, I admit it I really over indulged and that was a few days ago. It has taken me a few days to get that me feeling back. I’m usually for tossing out, leaving behind food or just don’t eat the foods I know will drain my energy. Knowing my body I am so aware what foods and how much of it will put a strain on my energy and that’s not just for workouts. My thoughts are a bit sluggish and I’m just, well, “lazy”. Lazy isn’t all I feel bloated and I will have a lot of flatulence.


What I’ve learned is not to punish myself too much. I increase my water intake more than normal. I’m good for 64 to 80 ounces on most days so yes I increase that. I resume my normal nutrition. What I don’t do which works but that balance in life is still off, is starve myself for several days. Without any nutrition I’m still in that zombie mode, lazy, slow at responding, tired, sleepy and that list can be extended but I’ll stop here. Punishing yourself for over indulgence can and will be hard on the body and mind. Just resume your normal.

With that said if you’re indulging every day then there is a problem. Easy way to resolve it is find out your why, then tackle it like a touchdown, home run, 3 point basket goal.

No punishment, because sometimes we just have to enjoy a bit of comfort food. Let’s agree no extended indulgence (unless it’s vacation should you take one) and that should be moderate indulgence.

It Happens

Today I had that experience, you know the one when the body and mind just will not sync.
My body was feeling it, the endorphins were rising as I’d already scheduled my workout time . Of course I still do home workouts and YES, ABSOLUTELY I’m still streaming on beach body demand. I do have that flexibility to workout whenever but I cannot forget my life. With responsibilities and so much more, it works best for me to schedule my workouts especially when me and my squad are doing it together.
BUT today my body was ready and my mind just wasn’t. I kept second guessing the workout one because I was working out solo and another I was just being you got lazy. I pushed myself to begin after I sat my stage (weight set up) and since I was doing a leg day with weights I decided heavy, 15,25,35 lbs would be good. Here again I started thinking maybe not go lighter. Lighter and not challenge myself, heck no.
I prefer to challenge heavy then decide if I need to increase or do a drop set. Safety and form with weights are so important. After the warm up I was so ready and am I glad I followed through. Sometimes it’s necessary to push ourselves and then smile 😊 afterwards. Yes you can be proud of you 👏 you don’t have to wait on someone else recognition.
I’m proud of my leg day although I probably should have increased the last set on those lunges to 40 lbs. maybe next time.

What’s In Your Toolbox

What toolbox you ask? Your daily toolbox. Oh did you think I was speaking on one with screwdrivers, saw replacements, nuts and bolts? Well no and yes because there are nuts and bolts in your daily toolbox.

The box I’m speaking of is the one that gets you motivated, get you in and keep you in that mindset of being the champion you are and pedaling towards those goals. Keep in mind that pedal can be fast or slow and sometimes very slow but you keep moving.
That continuous momentum is so necessary, but what’s in your toolbox 🧰? Now the contents can change . I’ll share mine

I listen to podcasts which are chosen by the content that’s applicable for me and my goals. Quick pause every podcast is not for you, choose wisely as not to burn wasteful minutes. I read books of encouragement. Encouraged reading is different because it encourages me to continue and see through what I call ‘life fog”. Motivational reads are a combination of motivation and encouragement, now that’s my perception and I’m allowed you may see it different. Respect mine as I will yours. My workouts help me release, think and feel just great.
I release unnecessary worry there are things I can change or contribute to the change (always positive), then there are things are what they are are and it’s not for me but someone else to change. I think and resolve while working out it just happens and the feeling well that’s from the endorphins. I journal, I have a daily calendar to include what I expect from myself outside of my medical professional.
My toolbox is heavy some days and there are days I remove a few of life nuts and bolts the weight is lighter. What’s your load in your toolbox?

Tempting The Good & The…

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I’m raising my hand, no both hands, I AM GUILTY. Just a reminder, fitness and nutrition go hand in hand it’s a binding relationship FOREVER. Now don’t misunderstand this because you can get fit on changing your nutrition without being physically active. As well as you can get fit without changing your nutrition. In both instances it will take longer and in both as you begin feeling good, your mindset changes and guess what happens?
You got it for the nutrition only you begin incorporating some type of activity of fitness in your life, walking, spinning, weightlifting, yoga, Pilates and the list continues. By the way all of it can be streamed on BOD , want details ask and I’ll share and you can join me and so many others.
Okay the tempting, that I’m guilty of sometimes. My nutrition is a 75/25 just being honest I haven’t made it to that 80/20. What are those numbers well it’s the so healthy and the off the record. Now to understand eating too much good has it’s backfire. I love salads, lots of greens, nuts, pumpkin, yams, all good right, of course. However too much for me because of the fiber can cause a GI disturbance yep unless the water consumption is increased.
I love nuts and good as they are for you an over consumption means increased fat you have to balance the servings. I fail every time. I try bulk purchasing and I bulk eat not good. I had to be reasonable stop tempting myself with the good. What did I do?, well I purchase the 100 calorie packets and I really limit myself what a change. How do I manage the other good, I purchase single servings so I won’t over indulge.
Now this was difficult as it cost more to purchase small than large but I had to stop the temptation because I have no control on good nutritional food and that goes for fruit. Fruit is good but too much converts into sugar and really I can’t burn that sugar in workouts including my daily activities. Tempting the good.
Now about the other I learned I’m not good with chips so I stop that purchase. Really I can eat a large bag of chips, drink lots of water and be satisfied as I huff and puff through a workout, 5 lbs feel like 20. Now when I have that craving, and I do; I purchase chips I serve myself a few and with tears I immediately toss the remaining in the garbage and the same when I bake and no one else wants anymore I toss it. I know wasteful why not freeze it. Really freeze it, nope I know how to defrost it so I toss out the temptation.
I know I’m not the only one that fight temptation so let’s be strong for each other and I’m tossing strength to you.

Having The Strength

I am so pushing through for strength as my injury gets better but I must admit on a few days last week I over did it and I had to ice and elevate for hours.

Change especially with an injury in the fitness arena as I have become so addicted to is depressing. Of course not to the point of inflicting harm on my self but being limited. I can still lift weights but not too heavy and it takes a minute t get them near me. Of course it’s the home gym but the weight are not near the weight bench and I have to steady myself on 1.5 legs. I still have restricted weight on the left. My mobility is so much better and I am more than grateful for my progress. I have to keep the benchin one position because I cannot get up and down so fast so a few lifts are not my greatest.

But it takes good strength to keep pushing through. Now this is not the strength of weight lifting but the strength of mindset.

Stay strong and keep the strength to accomplish your fitness goals. I’m there with you.

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The Transition is Confusing Sometimes

As I continue on my fitness and before I complete the post I will stop just for a moment. If YOU are anyone you know that is interested in working out at home and would love to join me and begin their own or even you, your own fitness journey, I welcome you and just send me your email for additional information. No commitment just info.

Back to this transition thing, on my journey I workout, giving my 100 and am so disappointed when I do not see the changes I want. Should I stop? what the heck am I doing incorrect? Is it time to look at another program? Did my nutrition get off? Just WHAT?

I ask myself all these questions and there are answers. It’s usually my nutrition and I forget to look at the non-scale victories. I know I have shared this before and will continue at intervals to remind myself and you. When on a fitness journey we will have so many non scale victories overlooked.

That scale can be a friend and an enemy. How so because we forget the non scale victories and these are actually what gives us strength. How. well the scale cannot weigh in on how you’ve improved your positive attitude in life even more so than normal (because I know you’re already positive), your commitment to yourself and respect to yourself and others. How your energy is higher and you are doing more for YOUR life as well as happier. Your clothes are looser and you’ve increased your weight lifting range, run longer, jump higher or step higher. Now if this could be weighed in on the transition it would be awesome, but it can’t.

What now, well it’s up to you and me. It’s our mindset and we must remind ourselves of the victories we have achieved on a fitness journey. But don’t stop with the fitness journey on any journey in your life look at the accomplishments. We’re closer than we think.

CLOSER, yes because if we continue I know the change we are moving towards is there. I know if I continue on my fitness journey that transition is there. KEYWORDS continue and don’t stop.

Does the Weather Affect My Workouts

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I was asked this question by someone knowing I have RA and workout as she also have RA and continues to use excuses to workout a couple of days month.  Yes you read it a month.  I am not making mockery of anyone for we all have limitations just some of us know how to adjust IF WE ARE COMMITTED.

The weather does not affect my workouts completely.  This is not a yes or no question for ME.  I may have a flare especially in my left thumb discomfort.  I can always when this occur adjust my position on push ups as well as decrease my weight lift range.

Now what does affect my joints is my nutrition.  Certain foods will send me into a full flare of the joints, swelling and the pain is out of control.  How do I overcome well I drink a sea of water or so it seems because I am trying to flush out the good tasty high in everything toxic for my body but still good.  Of course if I’d just take a few bites, I will not experience the flare.  Before I close food is not the only contributing factor to a RA flare and I’ve been with the auto-immune disease since childhood.

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If you’re committed and your intentions are aligned with your actions you adjust, erase the excuses, scale back but not down when necessary but YOU KEEP MOVING.