First of all I want to say I am strong, but I was unaware until recently.
This all begin near a month ago. I had my well woman’s exam and which also included a BMD (bone mass density) due to previous medication I took years ago. Every test came back normal, well almost EXCEPT the mammogram. ABNORMAL in each breast. I must say when you get that type of news you’re not sure what to do. For me I went numb and weak at all extremities. I took a breath and knew I had to reschedule for further testing (scans and ultrasounds). 2.5 weeks later. It doesn’t seem long but my mind was going weary.
I didn’t tell anyone, WHY? Well I didn’t want the negative conversations, or the stories I just didn’t want to hear them. I didn’t want pity talks. I didn’t tell my family for several reasons. Also the family reunion was approaching and 4th of July. I didn’t want to be the downer for anyone’s holiday spirit nor the gossip or tea at the family reunion. Now don’t get me wrong not all friends, associates or family members are negative
Did I cry, YES and I know there are so many approaches to treatment in abnormal mammogram. I continued with my daily routine, work family life and continued to workout every day, giving each my 100 and sometimes more. I enjoyed the 4th of July and really enjoyed my family reunion.
Days later it was time. I woke up worked out, showered and drove myself to my appointment. I had a short wait and then it was time scans, 3D scans and ultra sound. In between I read a book “Girl Code”. NOW to make me nervous I had to repeat each test again and no one was saying anything and I was unable to read their expression. On the third repeat I couldn’t take it I had to leave the waiting area and cried but shockingly it was short. I went back in and on the last ultrasound I just waited in the room for the doctor. I wasn’t sure if I wanted her to hurry in and just telll me what was our next step or take as long as necessary. But she came in.
I went cold, numb and weak. Well it turns out I have cyst in each breast and benign. The purpose of the repeats was to be sure there was nothing hiding. I dressed and on my way out I cried. As I was walking to the car my daughter called and I told her where I was and why as well as the outcome. She was angry but happy. Once in the car out of nowhere I cried hard and I felt a weight lifted from me.
So the next day I continued with my workout and each day I have included a new goal. I still shed a tear but know I am blessed because so many do not get the news I did. It’s GREAT, LIFE IS GREAT. I will continue my workouts staying focus. Silly how I stayed focused through this, but I NOW know I am STRONG. Also my fitness journey ha a companion- My Life journey which is changing all for the best. It is surprising how so much greener the grass looks and the sky is bluer, rain feels great and again LIFE IS GREAT. Although I’m still reserving my thoughts on humidity .
Enjoy life and much as you do your fitness journey. I once thought it was the same but its not.
My fitness journey has hills, mountains, winding roads, slopes, gravel and smooth surface. I encounter them all and my lesson which I have to focus on is “Stay Committed “.
Having a relationship with myself, just slain for knowing your mindset and your weakness; I know mine most of them when it comes to working out. I know if I come to a complete halt in my workouts for greater than two days, I’m setting myself up for a failure or probably a hard restart. With this said I encountered an almost halt on my workouts today.
My fitness journey is me following a workout and calendar and sometimes as I am now for the next several days combining two workouts. Today I increased weights, jumped higher, lunged lower and just put on a “you got this show”. I was all in and when it came to my second workout my muscles were burning. The energy was still there but I didn’t want to push through to injury or super exhaustion, I’ve been there. What did I do? Well there is a modifier in my workouts and I followed the modifier for half of my second workout then I was able to return to normal workout.
Modifying does not make it easier, you still have to push hard and give it your best or “100”. It just mean a decrease in your lunge, or decrease in your jump maybe a bounce. There are many who think modifying is for beginners or those testing the waters of a workout. All FALSE. Now I know because I’ve heard I wouldn’t want to modify any workout, I’d rather wait until I can do it for the ultimate gain.
I will not bash, trash or argue the “wait”, but will you start. I will continue to reiterate. First make a decision that you really want to make a change (I’m talking about workouts but it can apply to any goals in life). Ready for the change then COMMIT . This is why I modified and why I push through. I am committed to my fitness journey whether my results are slow or fast because without the commitment my results will be, oh yeah I will not have any results.
To weeks of commitment to yourself and to your goals as I am.
Just a few days ago, I’m not sure what was going on but after my first workout which was with weights I felt fatigued. Weird as it sounds it was not a normal fatigue like I’m tired but as if I was fatigued and wanted to do something else. WHAT the heck ? SOMETHING else, really. I had to check myself.
I do feel this way if I am fatigue from working out some fierce. Now I had given my 100 and had increased the weights slightly but the feeling of wanted to do something else. Hmm maybe I was a bit stressed but this usually pushes me to a GREAT workout. Was I being lazy? hungry? or just one of those days I didn’t want to do anything. Not sure but my remedy was to STOP.
I STOPPED, prepared myself a protein drink, read a chapter in my PD book and yep just like that I was rejuvenated. This does not always work but it did on this day and I kicked my second workout up a notch or two and gave it not 100 but 150.
I’m not sure yet what was going on but being committed to change is so important. I’ve learned do nothing for change will accomplish a 100 at nothing. Slow or Fast being committed will get me there. I reached my goal that day. Pushing Through with no excuses.
I recently was conversing with a friend and she voiced concern of having negative feedback in her goal setting with several friends. I listened to her and allowed her to shed tears, curse, and later begin to come to some decision. She wants to begin a fitness routine and was told several reasons why she shouldn’t.
I am one to listen and as people talk they usually will begin to some what resolve their own situation. I did give her one advice…. we have two sidelines in our goals. There are those on negative sideline giving you thousands of unsolicited negative comments that weighs heavy. This is like the opposing team not wanted you to score. However there’s another field and those on this sideline are cheering you on every second, every goal and cheering you to even go beyond your set goals because they believe in you, your supportive team. It’s up to you to decide which sideline you want to be on.
Sidelines and the people there are like a team, positive or negative and you, her as I have the choice to decide which sideline we want on OUR cheering squad.
To weeks of GREATNESS, I am standing on your POSITIVE sideline.
This is a question I was recently asked ” How do you know what’s the best workout”. Sadly I could not answer the question. Now don’t get startled before I share my reason.
I believe all workouts are “The Best”, yes I do. Now the concerns are is the workout for you, the intensity – too much or too little. If it’s weights are you able to use weights and most people are. Let me pause you can use 3 pound weights until they feel like 1 pound for as long as you like. You do not have to increase because the trainer or it is recommended. For certain EVERY trainer wants you to be safe, the gains will come.
Best workouts really depends on the relationship you have with your body and mindset. You know your limits when you’ve exceeded or have not given your 100. NOW the biggest challenge is YOUR COMMITMENT. If you are NOT committed to follow through with a trainer whether it is at the gym or like me using the trainers on BEACHBODYONDEMAND my favorite at home workout for unlimited positive reasons, your response to the workout may be negative BUT the blame is ???
Follow through means the entire program because response to workouts vary among all of us and for certain 2 days or 1 week may not or only show a small response. Follow through also means adhering to the nutrition (I still struggle sometimes with nutrition). Follow through means being aware of the non scale victories- inches lost, feeling good about yourself, the extra rep or two you can perform, weights increased on a workout, increased positive response to life.
Discover YOUR Best workout begin and or continue because I think you are AWESOME.
My Past – I have experienced weight fluctuations, size fluctuations. I’ve experienced almost every eating disorder known. I was concerned and didn’t know how to handle when I was disliked by family, friends and yes even foes, I thought I had to appease so many. I allowed myself to be taken advantage of. BUT I continued to workout always a fitness junkie but there are eliminations for success in fitness.
You can not be physical engaged in any fitness and expect an outcome to be proud of with an eating disorder which will eventually affect your health. I was blessed to only experience small bouts of anemia that only required Iron injections. Appeasing others brings on stress and I was stressed 85% of the time. Stress hinders a great response to any fitness and I neglected myself a lot.
My Present -& My Future -Today change and implementations is helping me to a proud future. That future begins at 1200 AM everyday. I workout to be strong, fit, healthy- NOT THIN. I’ve experienced the thin and the torture I did to my body was and is not an easy recovery.
I love family, friends and have learned to love but cautious of the frienemy, but no longer allow intimidation, words of negativity, nonsupport and abuse (which comes in many ways) have a value. I LOVE MYSELF, Yes . My journey to fitness is for my health, joy and loving all the GREAT aspect of life- THE FUTURE- MY FUTURE.
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Once again here I am sharing my fitness journey, I love to because really it is not easy as a 1, 2, 3. I have to prepare. I have to mentally tell my self WHY I am on the journey, which sometimes require a few minutes of meditation. The meditation helps me to prepare my mind and body, to calm down to temporarily remove thoughts of the what needs to be done later, and concerns of others …. I have to focus on myself .
I focus on my strength and power within to give my all or as I usually say my 100 through the entire workout. Just a reminder my 100 varies it can be be an 80 but for that day it is a 100 because that is what’s in the tank .
My favorite “JUMP TO IT JUICE”, which I drink 20- 30 prior to my workouts on 80% of my workouts propels me to higher levels of energy.
I’m sure there are a few things I may add to my preparation, but these are the tops and they work for me.
To a week of productive and awesome workouts also to filling your 100.