Just a few days ago, I’m not sure what was going on but after my first workout which was with weights I felt fatigued. Weird as it sounds it was not a normal fatigue like I’m tired but as if I was fatigued and wanted to do something else. WHAT the heck ? SOMETHING else, really. I had to check myself.
I do feel this way if I am fatigue from working out some fierce. Now I had given my 100 and had increased the weights slightly but the feeling of wanted to do something else. Hmm maybe I was a bit stressed but this usually pushes me to a GREAT workout. Was I being lazy? hungry? or just one of those days I didn’t want to do anything. Not sure but my remedy was to STOP.
I STOPPED, prepared myself a protein drink, read a chapter in my PD book and yep just like that I was rejuvenated. This does not always work but it did on this day and I kicked my second workout up a notch or two and gave it not 100 but 150.
I’m not sure yet what was going on but being committed to change is so important. I’ve learned do nothing for change will accomplish a 100 at nothing. Slow or Fast being committed will get me there. I reached my goal that day. Pushing Through with no excuses.
I recently was conversing with a friend and she voiced concern of having negative feedback in her goal setting with several friends. I listened to her and allowed her to shed tears, curse, and later begin to come to some decision. She wants to begin a fitness routine and was told several reasons why she shouldn’t.
I am one to listen and as people talk they usually will begin to some what resolve their own situation. I did give her one advice…. we have two sidelines in our goals. There are those on negative sideline giving you thousands of unsolicited negative comments that weighs heavy. This is like the opposing team not wanted you to score. However there’s another field and those on this sideline are cheering you on every second, every goal and cheering you to even go beyond your set goals because they believe in you, your supportive team. It’s up to you to decide which sideline you want to be on.
Sidelines and the people there are like a team, positive or negative and you, her as I have the choice to decide which sideline we want on OUR cheering squad.
To weeks of GREATNESS, I am standing on your POSITIVE sideline.
My Past – I have experienced weight fluctuations, size fluctuations. I’ve experienced almost every eating disorder known. I was concerned and didn’t know how to handle when I was disliked by family, friends and yes even foes, I thought I had to appease so many. I allowed myself to be taken advantage of. BUT I continued to workout always a fitness junkie but there are eliminations for success in fitness.
You can not be physical engaged in any fitness and expect an outcome to be proud of with an eating disorder which will eventually affect your health. I was blessed to only experience small bouts of anemia that only required Iron injections. Appeasing others brings on stress and I was stressed 85% of the time. Stress hinders a great response to any fitness and I neglected myself a lot.
My Present -& My Future -Today change and implementations is helping me to a proud future. That future begins at 1200 AM everyday. I workout to be strong, fit, healthy- NOT THIN. I’ve experienced the thin and the torture I did to my body was and is not an easy recovery.
I love family, friends and have learned to love but cautious of the frienemy, but no longer allow intimidation, words of negativity, nonsupport and abuse (which comes in many ways) have a value. I LOVE MYSELF, Yes . My journey to fitness is for my health, joy and loving all the GREAT aspect of life- THE FUTURE- MY FUTURE.
I knew exactly what day it was and I looked at the calendar to follow which muscles would be at work today. I compared the previous week weights and thought I would increase my weights but I was in for a BIG AWAKENING.
The sequence was changed. Okay I thought and was so wrong because the muscle groups (chest and back), also changed my ability to lift heavier weights. Oh yes I was able to increase on certain routines and others I had to decrease. Honestly I didn’t have to decrease but if I hadn’t, I would’ve been able to do 2 maybe 3 reps instead of 10. I was and still am satisfied with my decision.
I know now not to be so hasty in choosing my weights, at least before knowing the trainers workout plan of sequence… AND my fitness journey continues.
Weight lifting has become a HUGE part of my fitness journey, and I am still working on as well have improved on my nutrition which is major. I am fond of my home workouts for reasons I shall share later but my focus is on weight increase.
My workouts are with a trainer, and still at home. There is a sheet to record weights used and monitor growth and the trainer actually suggests when to increase the weights. I am good in following the trainers because they have more knowledge than I. However if my current weight use is still challenging I will not increase for reasons of : possible injury and compromising form to get the benefits. When I am able to lift, lunge or press with weights that are not challenging or I am able to do 3-5 more reps without feeling a challenge then I will increase my weights.
I know by how much well, this depends on what I have at home. There weights in between the 5 pound increase such as 10 to 12 instead of 15 or 15 to 17 instead of 20 and yes 20 to 22 instead of 25. Oh yeah I am speaking of dumbbells because I can increase in increments of 2 or 2.5 on the barbels. For me I have only that 12 on the dumbbells so I have to up my weights by 5 . Which I do with caution.
Cautious weight increase is important to stay on the journey without injury and to benefit from the challenge of increasing the weights. To a week of increasing weights and or reps with safety.
It was Saturday, I completed 6 weeks and sometimes other workouts and a run but my focus was on this specific workout. For 6 days a week, 20 minutes for 6 weeks. On Day 1 that was it, but I felt I owed it to myself to try another day. Day 2 I knew I should have followed my first instinct just STOP but I went on to the next day. Day 3 the words of motivation pushed me through and each day the trainer gave motivation to complete the workout but words that empowered a higher level of GREATNESS within.
Why did I cry? Because I was going to stop at a level I thought I was capable of in working out and trust me in 20 minutes I was stoked at the intensity and burn I received. Sometimes we assume as I did that we are functioning at a level be it in workouts or just daily living we have grown in. Believe me don’t there is such a higher level of you as I found out of me that exist and once that goal is reached you cry tears of joy. My tears were of joy because I’d discover a greater strength of ME.
I know I am not the only one who has and will experience this. Family members, spouses, daughters, sons, brothers, sisters, you get it and YES they sometimes say things they hurt us on any journey be it physical as mine is or goal, accomplishment at work.
For me it is my fitness journey. I get remarks from love ones and by that I mean family. They notice every dang flaw, Oh I see that roll is there, those hips are you working out, girl get another serving or I’ll get you more looks like you are at a stand still in the haha weight loss so just eat it.
To you all, stop and evaluate your words, if I wasn’t strong, focused and determined I’d end my fitness journey. Do you know what it takes to workout when your quads are burning like never before and keep pushing through. Or that dress, or any clothing you thought you would fit perfect by now, but no and yes I am closer to that perfect fit just need to tweak a few things in the journey. That roll is smaller, really I see it is still there every time I look in the mirror don’t need the reflection off your tongue and damn it don’t pinch it. I enjoyed the desert and no I know how to ask for more, perhaps you forgot it’s the inches and weight I’ve lost and losing- not my voice. I shared the scale is not moving just making small talk. I did not share my non scale victories, inches lost WOW, yes you can lose inches and not weight sometimes, did I just educate your negative thought again. Thank me later with motivation and encouragement. Non scale victory is keeping my focus as it is my journey and know those closest to me don’t know what they think they know about me.
However your words, actions did HURT me, for a minute okay maybe 30 minutes but I forgive you because you don’t know me after all. Hopefully as I continue my journey you too will be willing to join me and change your mindset, fitness goals, and have a broader outlook on life. YES because I do love you and see so much GREATNESS in you.