Just a few days ago, I’m not sure what was going on but after my first workout which was with weights I felt fatigued. Weird as it sounds it was not a normal fatigue like I’m tired but as if I was fatigued and wanted to do something else. WHAT the heck ? SOMETHING else, really. I had to check myself.
I do feel this way if I am fatigue from working out some fierce. Now I had given my 100 and had increased the weights slightly but the feeling of wanted to do something else. Hmm maybe I was a bit stressed but this usually pushes me to a GREAT workout. Was I being lazy? hungry? or just one of those days I didn’t want to do anything. Not sure but my remedy was to STOP.
I STOPPED, prepared myself a protein drink, read a chapter in my PD book and yep just like that I was rejuvenated. This does not always work but it did on this day and I kicked my second workout up a notch or two and gave it not 100 but 150.
I’m not sure yet what was going on but being committed to change is so important. I’ve learned do nothing for change will accomplish a 100 at nothing. Slow or Fast being committed will get me there. I reached my goal that day. Pushing Through with no excuses.
My Past – I have experienced weight fluctuations, size fluctuations. I’ve experienced almost every eating disorder known. I was concerned and didn’t know how to handle when I was disliked by family, friends and yes even foes, I thought I had to appease so many. I allowed myself to be taken advantage of. BUT I continued to workout always a fitness junkie but there are eliminations for success in fitness.
You can not be physical engaged in any fitness and expect an outcome to be proud of with an eating disorder which will eventually affect your health. I was blessed to only experience small bouts of anemia that only required Iron injections. Appeasing others brings on stress and I was stressed 85% of the time. Stress hinders a great response to any fitness and I neglected myself a lot.
My Present -& My Future -Today change and implementations is helping me to a proud future. That future begins at 1200 AM everyday. I workout to be strong, fit, healthy- NOT THIN. I’ve experienced the thin and the torture I did to my body was and is not an easy recovery.
I love family, friends and have learned to love but cautious of the frienemy, but no longer allow intimidation, words of negativity, nonsupport and abuse (which comes in many ways) have a value. I LOVE MYSELF, Yes . My journey to fitness is for my health, joy and loving all the GREAT aspect of life- THE FUTURE- MY FUTURE.