Being Trapped -The Power Of Meditation

The power of working out has greater value at times than physical. I’m speaking of my current situation of feeling trapped. Yes I am. As an individual with greater than one profession the one I love is the medical field. I am being challenged almost bullied and really recently I want to just scream and say things I know I would regret later but will make me feel great at the moment. How great it is to know your self and have that control.

I know the power of Meditation and recently it has become a routine. Now I am one that always favor if you’re not happy move on, so I’m trapped. I enjoy the work, what is it well in this particular area of my profession it’s treating individuals with IV or injections. Love it, so yeah I’m trapped. However the meditation is and has assisted me. I meditate anyway and for me there is a difference. I meditate to relax my body and focus and now I’m meditating to see the beauty of my situation and to keep my mindset and behavior positive.

ALWAYS allow your INPUT be so POSITIVE that your OUTPUT is equally POSIYIVE.

The Fitness Journey

I’ve been asked how long will I continue my fitness journey so I need to clarify. My fitness journey is a journey but there is more. The journey is to unlike previous workout incorporate nutrition in my workouts. I’ve always been a workout individual not always committed, but I had every eating disorder and poor nutrition. It’s now different.

The journey, my journey is no longer a temporary journey, no longer that on and off #%%^. Nope. It’s a lifestyle continuous which means never ending. So perhaps instead of “My Fitness Journey” I should say “A New Lifestyle”. Either way I’m dedicated to empower myself, others in a healthy way.

That Fear

Once again I’m dealing with that fear, but it’s not alone. Nope I have excitement mixed in. How so? Well I’m about to begin a new workout program for certain with another challenge (not sure why I agreed to it but) as well as embark on change in my professional world, but back to this fear and excitement on the workout.

First I’m always excited about a new workout program but a sneak peek of it can be a bit challenging, at least for me especially when I see new workouts I’ve never done. I assure I’ve been on a fitness journey on and off for years.
So I got a sneak peek and a sample workout of this new “Beachbody” program and I was thinking 🤔 this looks too challenging and I may not be able to make it the first week.


That darn fear which is usually me second guessing myself before I actually begin. Now for sure if I’m not enjoying the workout not because of the intensity but not having fun it will be a no go. I must enjoy a program. Nonetheless I committed to the workout for two weeks, this being my first. How’s it going well, umm just saying I’m for certain am challenged and YES it’s a go.
See sometimes we must step into that which we fear (as long as it is safe not life threatening ) to get our strength. That strength is not lifting weights or a workout but the mindset strength. The strength to conquer and endure.

It’ Easy To Mimic- It’s Better To Be You

I have to be honest, I love streaming my workouts and YES I’m 95% Beachbody the other well that’s 3 % using a few YouTube workouts mostly boxing, the other 2% is me doing lunges, squats, treadmill, or spinning .

What I had to learn is regardless how others may rave about a workout program it just may not be the one for me. There has been a few streamed workouts I followed just because I was following the crowd, however I wasn’t impressed or having fun.


Most of all and so important if you’re not having fun and excited about the next workout regardless of the sore muscles, then it’s probably time to rethink it. Being impressed with workouts are important because for me it’s the challenge. But agin it has to be fun.


Okay back to following the crowd. I felt guilty quitting you know not like a complete failure but I did feel I’d failed who? Yeah you guessed it. I’d not failed myself or others I was failing to accept this program is not for me.

This is when I became aware if I love the program the benefits or so fulfilling. Now fulfilling just isn’t the scale victories. Remember the non scale victories are greater. The energy, the mindset, the inches, that joy oh this list is longer but I will stop here. When you enjoy your workouts you become dedicated. Now remember I am a Beachbody streamer so not all programs are for me and gosh it’s not the trainer, because all the trainers are AWESOME. Sometimes it’s the program so I’m erasing my feelings of guilt and if you’re with a streaming workout program and not satisfied as well as feeling guilty if you quit. STOP, it’s okay to switch just don’t stop working out and oh don’t jump to anything easy. Just do you. You’re BETTER when you do you.

The Pause

I had another pause. My fitness journey was once again paused although I deviated off and yes I had to grasp myself.
The weather in this southern state was insane. No lights for almost 60 hours, snow (which we rarely get). The fireplace and those logs really burned quick, generator I’m not a fan of continuous use and most of all it was cold. The cell reception kept going out limited text, limited calls and no internet. Just once again insane.
I panicked for a few hours, yet keeping family and fur babies warm, and safe. We experienced life on another level so what happened. Well lots of board games, story telling and jokes. We do this occasionally but somehow the real enjoyment had escaped us. Connecting to my older daughters when the cell tower allowed was like a sugar overload. We baked and cooked because of gas stove and I consumed way too much limited things to do or was it?

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Nope it wasn’t. For certain I wasn’t able to stream workouts so during the day light we all danced, boxed, lift weights and used bands. So by night we were ready to wrap up for warmth . Games and workouts and a lot of love to appreciate the strength we had to push through the temporary pause.

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LIFE will happen, there are and will be pauses on any journey, how we handle it determines if we stay “paused”, or push through. The time of the pause sometimes can or cannot be predicted but the resumption is there, if we (me and you) make it a choice because the pause is to strengthen us.

So today join me in an extra lift, squat, few steps on a walk or run or just a deep breathe for pushing through the pause.

The Struggle

There are days my nutrition is on point like really 💯, but the those days like today I was so off, not just one meal but every dang meal. Really my carb intake was a bit high the list is long today. I struggle with my carbs.
Will I starve myself or workout harder in my next workout? Truth is NO. I will not starve myself or decrease my caloric intake my large amount, nor will I do 3 to 4 workouts.

Now I will get back on track of course I will evaluate why I felt the need to eat as I did. Since I give my all in every workout I will increase the number of workouts only if I have that increased energy to another one. What and why? It’s called moderation and enjoying life without overindulgence in anything continuous that will yield negative outcome. Now this does apply to workouts, nutrition but just as much to life.

Working on decreasing my carbs, share with me do you have a struggle?

Are You Socialized

Are you? This question may make you raise your eyebrow or both because you’re probably thinking 🤔 what the heck. Yes, and if you’re like me have a few social media accounts, RIGHT.

Well you have it right and wrong. The socializing I’m speaking of is allowing the greater population decide your norm so you will not feel like the odd ball. Odd ball being what you’re doing is so out of characteristic for let’s say your age, your financial status, your professional, your gender, your family, your friends this list is long but you get the picture.

You’re SOCIALIZED when you allow the limits, history standards set your limits. You’re socialized when you do them because you feel you maybe cast out of a group, lose friends, or as I do sometimes carry those labels “odd, so different”, there are many. I once was so socialized listening to a few on my fitness journey. I also am so glad I became aware, surrounded myself with like minded individuals, and detached myself from limiting socialized standards. Remember if you’re not harming you or others your journey be it fitness as mine or whatever is on the rise.

Figuring It Out For Me

I’m currently just bouncing all over with my workouts. Now if you know me this is not always a good thing. I need structure with my workouts to prevent complacency and not to just do the same workouts in other words, a schedule. Yep this is why I love streaming my workouts, one program directing me each day what to do. This is why beachbodyondemand is my channel. Of course I do a few you tube workouts but 95% it’s that beach body workout with those awesome trainers. I shared the current bounce with someone and their recommendation left me speechless, my response was “really”. I bounce when I’m not sure which new workout I want to begin. The Recommendation- maybe working out is no longer for you, perhaps you should stop and find another hobby.

I’m lost, first it’s not a hobby, it’s my fitness journey but it’s a life style. STOP, that was alarming. Now I know I will never be able to share my fitness journey with her . Sometimes we just have to figure things out for ourselves and cast out those negative inputs regardless of how we value a person. Everyone we classify as a friend will not understand us. Yes it’s okay to value certain aspects of our life differently. But for certain if you don’t understand at most be supportive. Or just figure it out for you after all whatever journey you’re on it is about you, pleasing yourself to be proud of you. So you like me sometimes we just have to figure it out for our goals. I’m going to do a few squats to that.

Permission Without Guilt

Just a quick reminder, life happens. Life can throw a curve ball and knock you completely off, which by the way should be temporary. So, this past weekend one of my fur babies begin screaming loud for 3-5 seconds then stop. If he bumped into something, another fur love touched him and he’d stand for minutes in one place. Now Lucky is with limited vision and several eye meds to prevent further decrease in vision so I felt he was adjusting but no.

Lucky was having difficult getting comfortable to nap and adjusting for comfy he’d scream then find a way for comfort. I really thought it would pass but nope and then the vet was closed. Well I couldn’t allow him to keep screaming and I was doing everything for comfort trying to make to Monday but that wasn’t going to happen. To the animal ER we went. We were triaged quick so that meant a quick visit right? I was so wrong and was happy Lucky was able to doze off. Three hours in the vehicle and my feet were cold. In we went, examined and then injection with two meds. The cost oh my. Home and two hours later very little relief for Lucky and no sleep for me.
My Sunday was dragging, but every time he napped so did I and he screamed. He wouldn’t eat so no medication could be given and I was almost to tears. Really I just knew this is far worse and he was sick but Monday came. I called the vet no ER here and took the first appointment, this time Lucky was taken in and I sat in a cold vehicle again. I am not good for just sitting in an idling vehicle to warm or cool it for comfort. Yeah that’s just me. I get a call from the vet, more pain injection a higher dose and an inflammatory med injection with a treatment, a laser treatment one for now but he’ll need 6 more. Huh 🤔 laser well an hour later out comes the tech with Lucky and I assisted in getting him comfort for the ride home. By the way Lucky is a Shih Tzu and terrier mixed.
Minutes after getting home and comfort still tired I wanted to workout. The other fur babies looking odd I turned and there is Lucky walking toward the food bowl no screaming. What?
My little nugget had a horrible arthritis flare. I was so happy to see a speedy response to injections and laser treatment but I still wanted to workout. I was fatigued as yeah that fatigued and felt so guilty. I have a team we workout together, I’d delayed our workout which meant 2 workouts the same because everyone has a schedule so yeah. Long story short I couldn’t do either, I was super tired and energy was gone. I felt so guilty, I was letting myself and the team down.

Then a friend called and reminded me, it’s a workout, it’s okay give yourself permission for recovery and drown the guilt. WOW, I did and I was able to resume our workouts early Tuesday. We support one another in our team as well as grow together but more so understand. I ask of you what regular routine you perform and feel guilty when you have to bow out for a day or longer. Today I will say to you erase the guilt and give yourself permission to recover to a stronger you.

The Carbs We Consume

Carbs have some benefits especially the ones that provide energy in workouts. There are so many carbs although healthy and fiber filled it is easy to overindulge without being truly aware. What happens we, or rather ME sometimes have eaten too many carbs. It did take me awhile to become knowledgeable of this. I begin tracking my carbs, I wasn’t eating excessive on the truly recognizable carbs. I’m share a few.

VEGGIES – acorn squash, butternut squash, green peas

BEANS – bean pasta, hummus, peas

FRUITS – apples, bananas, cantaloupe, grapes, mango, oranges, raspberries, watermelon.

GRAINS – bran cereal, oats, quinoa

I’m sharing only a few for there is more and I’m aware that modification is so important, however sometimes it is easy to lose control on what we know is good for us. Depending on your active level is a good start to know your limit. Just remember as I have to too much of any food can have a backlash in my fitness journey. Still learning and growing my fitness knowledge, what’s new on your journey and it doesn’t have to be on fitness.