First of all I want to say I am strong, but I was unaware until recently.
This all begin near a month ago. I had my well woman’s exam and which also included a BMD (bone mass density) due to previous medication I took years ago. Every test came back normal, well almost EXCEPT the mammogram. ABNORMAL in each breast. I must say when you get that type of news you’re not sure what to do. For me I went numb and weak at all extremities. I took a breath and knew I had to reschedule for further testing (scans and ultrasounds). 2.5 weeks later. It doesn’t seem long but my mind was going weary.
I didn’t tell anyone, WHY? Well I didn’t want the negative conversations, or the stories I just didn’t want to hear them. I didn’t want pity talks. I didn’t tell my family for several reasons. Also the family reunion was approaching and 4th of July. I didn’t want to be the downer for anyone’s holiday spirit nor the gossip or tea at the family reunion. Now don’t get me wrong not all friends, associates or family members are negative
Did I cry, YES and I know there are so many approaches to treatment in abnormal mammogram. I continued with my daily routine, work family life and continued to workout every day, giving each my 100 and sometimes more. I enjoyed the 4th of July and really enjoyed my family reunion.
Days later it was time. I woke up worked out, showered and drove myself to my appointment. I had a short wait and then it was time scans, 3D scans and ultra sound. In between I read a book “Girl Code”. NOW to make me nervous I had to repeat each test again and no one was saying anything and I was unable to read their expression. On the third repeat I couldn’t take it I had to leave the waiting area and cried but shockingly it was short. I went back in and on the last ultrasound I just waited in the room for the doctor. I wasn’t sure if I wanted her to hurry in and just telll me what was our next step or take as long as necessary. But she came in.
I went cold, numb and weak. Well it turns out I have cyst in each breast and benign. The purpose of the repeats was to be sure there was nothing hiding. I dressed and on my way out I cried. As I was walking to the car my daughter called and I told her where I was and why as well as the outcome. She was angry but happy. Once in the car out of nowhere I cried hard and I felt a weight lifted from me.
So the next day I continued with my workout and each day I have included a new goal. I still shed a tear but know I am blessed because so many do not get the news I did. It’s GREAT, LIFE IS GREAT. I will continue my workouts staying focus. Silly how I stayed focused through this, but I NOW know I am STRONG. Also my fitness journey ha a companion- My Life journey which is changing all for the best. It is surprising how so much greener the grass looks and the sky is bluer, rain feels great and again LIFE IS GREAT. Although I’m still reserving my thoughts on humidity .
Enjoy life and much as you do your fitness journey. I once thought it was the same but its not.
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Once again here I am sharing my fitness journey, I love to because really it is not easy as a 1, 2, 3. I have to prepare. I have to mentally tell my self WHY I am on the journey, which sometimes require a few minutes of meditation. The meditation helps me to prepare my mind and body, to calm down to temporarily remove thoughts of the what needs to be done later, and concerns of others …. I have to focus on myself .
I focus on my strength and power within to give my all or as I usually say my 100 through the entire workout. Just a reminder my 100 varies it can be be an 80 but for that day it is a 100 because that is what’s in the tank .
My favorite “JUMP TO IT JUICE”, which I drink 20- 30 prior to my workouts on 80% of my workouts propels me to higher levels of energy.
I’m sure there are a few things I may add to my preparation, but these are the tops and they work for me.
To a week of productive and awesome workouts also to filling your 100.
Getting my fight on is not physical but mental and well yes it is physical in my mind. When I accomplish a goal and I remember the many whispers or spoken out I thought so looking or waiting for a quit or stop.
There are times, of many not just myself but you and so many others experience the why, is this good for you, no stop while you are ahead, don’t do it, or I wouldn’t be able to do it, or the giant. Uh-huh I thought so, which comes after you stop towards a goal or slow down to revise a goal due to a hiccup so you can achieve your goal.
On my fitness journey I have heard so many positive encouragements, but every now and then those negatives will stand out when we hit a plateau or need to revise our daily lives. I know ignore the negatives and trust me they shout out loud but believe they are fewer than we think it’s just the noise. The noise makes my fight stronger, toward my goals.
This is my fitness and health journey, yes this time is about, who, huh, yep IT’S ABOUT ME. If I slow down, don’t cheer me on with “I thought so”, I ‘m about to shut you up because I am revising a stronger plan to follow. Please back up, I don’t want your consolation, I’m not out of gas, I am refueling with a larger tank. That’s okay you did not see it because again It’s about me.
Long pause, join me in mind thought, progression, goal setting and achievements, let’s turn the side line of Uh huh I thought so, to YEAH YOU’RE A CHAMPION I KNEW IT. Maybe they too will remember and begin a new positive goal in their life.
Has there been anyone with this experience whether it be with a new trainer or like me a new workout program. The unexpected can be so challenging in workouts atleast for me again, I develop a fear.
I know you ask what is the fear, you are on a “fitness, health journey”. Indeed I am but I fear failure. Yes, I fear if I am going to have to pause my workout program and how many times or if it will such a challenge I may give up.
Well, my new 20 minute workout is a challenge to begin, I knew it would be but WOW, not as much. For all reading and are roaring with laughter at 20 minutes, STOP. This trainer works you out and every muscle in 20 minutes you feel as if its been at most an hour. Honestly the first day I almost quit, yep you heard it. Today being day 2 I was half way in which was about 10 minutes maybe 9mins 57 seconds. What the hell, either way I stopped took a deep breath as sweat is pouring, NO. No, I cannot do it I tried and my inner challenging voice spoke up “Really, here you go again with this bull crap, shake it off you know tomorrow you are going to be angry for quitting or will that be today”. Shut up inner go get it me, shut the*&#@ up. This transpired for about 2 minutes on pause and I resumed because I knew it wasn’t I could not do the workout, though challenging. I feared the Routine, Failure, and just plain FEAR of change.
I got over myself and completed day 2 I have 6 weeks of this workout and I WILL COMPLETE – yes I’m over the fear now…. The Challenge because its not easy.
How is your foundation? Mine shaky, but before I was able to build a foundation I had to build a platform. WHAT? What? Yes a platform was my outline what I want to achieve on my journey in other words my goals. Each goal is my foundation and I have built on each.
Each goal on my fitness journey requires different approach and some are the same which I have now named “neighbor goal”. Prior to this approach I would vision what I wanted to achieve and was making small gains but I would also become so frustrated because it took seem like forever on the small gains and then ….. complete silence. I’d start again to yeah stop again. What was going on? I had no platform and no foundation.
Now, that I do and weekly I’m able to look and check on all “staying focus”. This is my fitness journey and I am willing to climb a few mountains to achieve my goals, just keeping it real y’all.
How good are you at following the great mass of people or will you follow your own path.
Following our own path (which is our goals, and outlook), can and will be different from the mass of people. Yet, another lesson I had to learn. I’m again not a spring chicken, but my energy and goals in MY life has a lot of energy and fuel in the line. It is so easy to follow the usual especially in my fitness, and just stop. I would love to, ha ha ha, that’s a HUGE lie. I love working out, lifting weights, high cardio, running. My fitness journey😊❤️ .
How about being an exception and just be you. I had to struggle with this phrase in beginning my journey. I still get sneers or someone come and pinch to see how much skin is loose or negative talk. I understand what they don’t and I am on my path. There are so many on the same path as me (another growth).
I am Following the flow that agrees with my fitness goals. What flow are you following? Please ask yourself and evaluate. To the positive flow in your life, MUCH LOVE!!
Power who does not like it? At some part in our life we like power be it small or large. But how do we use it? Well some better than others and not always in a positive way, but I am focusing on working out, yes, just fitness.
Fitness and Power, and these are powerful words. If you are anything like me, I have challenges especially when it comes to well hell all workouts but greater with weights and certain cardio routines. Once again I am a lover of “beach body” and beachbodyondemand.com has all my workouts and favorite trainers except my running or biking. Okay, keeping focus, “fitness and power”, I have told myself several times, “no I cannot do that move or weights, what increase past 10 pounds, this is crazy I need to find another program”. Changing programs did not help because it was the same thing jump, lunge how many times and I’d change again to find another challenge. I still was saying to myself “I can’t”.
FINALLY I looked at my oversized body at that time and said “you got to get with it and do something because going to the gym once a week and really doing nothing for 2 hours is not cutting it lady”. I teared up and look at how my body was disappointing me, no that’s wrong, how I’d abused and disappointed my body”. Like a soldier I marched back in the workout room, decided on a program on beachbody and begin my journey and every time I thought of “I can’t”, I changed it to YES I CAN, and I did. It was my mindset. Once I changed my mindset to I CAN, I was a new person, and so my journey begin. I can not share the number of programs I have completed and repeated and laugh aloud when I remember me wanting to stop a specific routine and not lift weights. Depending on the trainer my weights can go as high as 130 on squats that’s really up from 10. Yep.
I challenge you from this day forward in your fitness to erase, cancel out the phrase , I can’t, become powerful because “ I CAN” is power and you can. I believe in you and me, we got this.